Formerly addicted to drugs. Houston, TX
“When I was in high school, I remember a public service announcement on TV that said, “Nobody ever says, ‘When I grow up I want to be a junkie.’” I laughed about it with my friends, never knowing how prophetic it would be. I was raised in a loving family, in a drug and alcohol- free environment. I excelled in school, and was on my way to college and a bright future. I had dreams of a successful career and a family. I was not supposed to be a drug addict. For whatever reason, I decided to try cocaine and methamphetamine when I was 18. I fell in love and was addicted immediately, never knowing that drugs would steal everything I ever loved. By the time college started, I was too high to register. Before long, I was getting in trouble with the law, but I didn’t care because nothing else mattered but getting the next high. Nearly twenty years flew by in a drugged out haze. During this time, I went to prison, mental hospitals and drug rehabs. I lost jobs, dropped in and out of school, and alienated my family. Even when my little sister died from an accidental drug overdose, I didn’t stop. A few years later, when I was out getting high, my mom died when our house caught fire. I was devastated by the guilt. The two people that loved me the most were gone. I had only the clothes on my back and nothing left to lose. It never occurred to me to turn to God with my burdens and my pain. I just kept using to escape the hell that had become my life. The drugs had damaged my brain so badly that I began to hear voices in my head and I was on the verge of suicide. I wanted to die, but lacked the courage to kill myself. I actually prayed to God for death. I knew something had to change.
In October 2014, at the age of 36, I decided to come to Eternal Awakenings to get help. The staff was caring and gentle and the accommodations were beautiful. A few days after I checked in, I awoke and felt renewed. The desire to die was gone. I knew it was the Holy Spirit. God reminded me that I had hope for a future. By participating in the group therapy provided at EA, I was able to work through some of my grief, pain, and regrets. Through the twelve steps and my relationship with God and Jesus Christ, I was able to forgive myself and others, as well as make amends. I have been sober for eleven months now and live a full life, thanks to the help I received at Eternal Awakenings. I settled in Gonzales to be close to my EA family, and I go to church there every Sunday. If you are struggling with addiction, there is help available. I have been to many drug rehabs, but the only place I received true healing was at Eternal Awakenings.”
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